Hey. Hello. I feel bad for not updating. So, here I am today. Umh, first of all, I missed greeting all the events since last December. Im just going to do it here, now.

Merry Christmas

to those who are celebrating

Happy New Year 2013

another year of wasted resolution list. yeah, i know.

Happy Chinese New Year

it's the snake year, and i hate snakes.

Happy Valentine's Day

how was yours? im going to tell mine later ;)

so where should i start? hmm.. 

I'll start with telling why I haven't been updating. There's only one reason, too lazy. Maybe you'll be like, hey, if you want your blog to be a big success, you have to keep on updating and stuff and bla bla bla. I know that already. The other me wins all the time and i left my blog on the shelf and it starts getting dusty and yeah. 

Many things happened in the past 6 months, and one of them is that, I'm not attending normal regular classes in school, instead, I'm now studying at home. Home schooling. Someone told me that it's a school for abnormal or disabled child or so. No, screw you.

I'm not gonna say what happened and why I agreed to this decision, which I regret now, a bit. I'm just going to write a little bit about my home schooling thing. So what happen is, I'm studying alone at home, without a teacher, only my mom watching. I'm using a program called SOS or AOP, I don't know. It is very freaking boring, and at some point, I hate it. Of course I do. In my school, I have 27 people in my class, making noise. If I'm bored, I can just sleep in class, like literally, which is something I can't do and I miss. And talking chit-chatting with my friends in class, playing childish games together, complaining how warm the class was, getting scolded together by the teacher, surviving the horrible test. I miss them all :( Now, I have to do that all by myself. I miss my class. This class is the best class I've ever been in. I don't know how to say that. Hahaha. 

Many people have been really judgemental about me doing home schooling and self-studying. Most of them are negative comments. I've got to be frank. I'm plainly annoyed. And actually, there's only ONE positive comment about this. Everyone is like, aw, you're going to be an anti-social kid, you will not talk with anyone, you will be like an autistic kid, and all sort of bad stuff. No. Oh, my God. Why can't you guys be a little bit more supportive. Some said it nicely, and some is like, I don't know, annoyingly giving me their comment about this. And only ONE people said that home schooling is good. She said, "Aww, you're going to finish school earlier. How nice. You're already a younger than me and you're going to graduate earlier". SEE?! ISN'T THAT A VERY NICE THING?! Thank you so much Martha. I just got fed up by all this judgemental comments. Even someone I don't know, my sister's friend, spit out very bad things about this. Just shut up. I got really upset. 

Valentine's day. I spent it with 2 of my best friends. We went to the mall and simply play arcade games. I find it fun. I'm childish by nature. I myself don't know what is that supposed to mean :/

What else, hmm. When 2013 arrived, I was like, March is still 3 months away. A long way to go. And, BAM, it's March already. What's so special about this? It's my birthday, and I kind off hate it. I always get my hopes up on my birthday and ended up hating it myself. I always hope that every year will get better. Plain bullshit. Nothing happened. Every year is the same and I just get older and older and older and older. I'm 16 this year! I'm not excited at all. I've always wanted to be a 17, legal age, girl. Not now, not anymore. I'm a year away from getting my driving license and, I don't know what you call it, residence identification card. Then I'll be able to vote for the next president and so on. I'm a fish on the ground. I'm not excited at all. About me growing up, going to university, graduate, get a job, slowly become old. How is that or how does that sound or feel fun or pleasing or joyful. It doesn't sound fun or pleasing at all to me. Like what the 12 year olds always say, I want to grow up, I want to have money, I want to be free from school, I want to be able to spend a lot of money, I want to be independent. You kids just have to slap yourself, splash your face with a cold water, pinch your cheeks really hard til it turns purple and wake up from this stupid, disappointing dreams. I mean it. I just want to dig a hole and bury myself. 

But, since it's sweet 16. I have plans for this year. I sound indecisive about this getting old thing. Huh. It's going to be a pool party. Casual outfits, no bikinis. There will be no swimming, for I will be floating balloons on the pool. BBQ. Less than 50 people. Not much though. I'm just getting excited on the decorations, which needs a lot of work. The theme will be nautical-ish. So there's going to be anchors, chains, ropes, stripes, blue, white, red. Blue and white balloons are going to float on water. One ancher will be pasted on the wall, which is going to match the invitation card, there will be this triangular cards hung on rope with a letter on each triangular card, paper chains, bubbles, musics, foods, snacks, water balloons. Towels? No. 

and I have a wishlist. I don't know who's going to fulfill it, I'm just going to write it down :p

1. Cold, hard, cash. Who doesn't love it?

2. A polaroid, most likely.

3. iPhone cases.

4. Ticket to seafood lunch, nyam *burps*

5. Perfume. I'm loving Taylor Swift's Enchanted. Smells so sweet.

6. A Rilakkuma bouquet, with fake flowers.

7. Advertisement on my blog, paid ones. HAHAHA.

8. Rhinestones, from all size, all colors, and plenty of them.

 9. Rilakkuma or Cinderella toys. 

That's all I guess. I know I sound ridiculous, but who cares. I'm going to pray really hard for this *fingers crossed*.

That's all for this post I guess. I'll update really soon on my birthday party and stuff. Thank you for reading and for those viewing my blog even when i'm not updating it. Have a nice day.

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